Monday, October 24, 2011

Lifes...

Dis week will be the final week for our maid to be around, starting next week, I'll be maid-less, t4 I have to send both Zulfan n Zafran to nursery, eventho I'm not so keen in sending Zafran to nursery yet since he is only 1 year and 2 mths, but I have no other choice, no one is there to look after him at home, except my dad and my mum (by end of dec), but I do not want to burden them with looking after my kids after all these years, they have been looking after me n my 4 other siblings diligently. Its always been my prayer tat everything will be alrite and both my kids will be Ok in nursery, one thing i normaly worried of is their health...n d most i can do is to pray for the best, May Allah protects both of my sons from all bad things be it in term of health, environment, surroundings or people Amin...

Maid-less meaning I will have to re-start my old routine in doing all the house chores alone, x apa buat jak...as usual I had prepred a basic schedule in doing all the things...as for house chores I'm not so worried about it tho I'll be extremely bz wit 2 super lasak boys, my motto will always be just do it, do not think about how it was in the past or how it will be in future, just face watever in front of me today...

Its only tat our schedule now is not final since next year, zulfan will start his pre-school at different school and mr.hubby will start his LLM in PM. Meaning to say I will have to re-adjust my things and life back in Leecas Villa

Talking about Mr.hubby pursuing his master, actly we both applied for the same scholarship but in the end only his application granted and mine was rejected even after appealing,even during the interview they did gave me some hints that they might not be able to grant both application as we are both husband and wife, but at that point of time, I did not stop hoping and praying for the best, yes, I was sad about it as I've been working on it since last year, studying all the procedures, pros and cons if both studying wit two small kids but yet I believe Allah knows best wat is best for all of us, I believed wat ever happen, it happens wit reason, tho it is my dream to be able to hold an LLM degree but maybe the time has yet to come, really hoping that one day I will be able to do so Insya Allah...its only tat in two years time Zulfan will then enter his 1st year in primary school and I had slight doubt on my ability to cope wit my own study, his study, Zafran's development and household affairs...mr.hubby had once suggested I do it through research as I can still be in KK, I don't know, as at now I guess I'll just leave the idea open and concentrate on my kids and my job as mr.hubby will not be around for about 1 year...sob sob sob :(..

Wit my other part not being around next year meaning I will have to do everything alone, sending kids to school and nursery, buying groceries and supplies, paying all bills etc etc huhuhu, I keep telling myself that I can do it as I have to do it and I will do it for the sake of Allah, my amanah towards my beloved kids and my dearie hubby, my only hope and prayers that Allah will always be with me, helping me in discharging all my duties and May Allah make things easy for me Amin Ya Rabbal'alamin...

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Bertali arus dugaan tiba
Menakung sebak airmata
Namun tak pernah pun setitis
Gugur berderai di pipi
Tidak ditempah hidup sengsara
Suratan nasib yang melanda
Menongkah badai bergelora
Diredah bersendirian
Bagaikan camar pulang senja
Patah sayapnya tetap terbang jua
Sekadar secicip rezeki
Buat yang sedang rindu menanti
Segenggam tabah dipertahankan
Buat bekalan di perjalanan
Kau bebat luka yang berdarah
Kau balut hati yang calar

Telah tertulis suratan nasibmu
Derita buatmu ada hikmahnya
Terlukis senyum di bibir lesu
Tak siapa tahu hatimu
Biarpun keruh air di hulu
Mungkinkah jernih di muara
Biarpun jenuh hidup dipalu
Pasti bertemu tenangnya

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Alhamdulillah walaupun ujian datang melanda namun aku masih punya suami yg sentiasa di sisi dan keluarga yg tidak pernah jemu2 menghulurkan bantuan di kala aku memerlukan, terima kasih Ya Allah, sekurang2nya aku tidak bersendirian...

Monday, August 15, 2011

Alhamdulillah...

Entri hari akan berkisar tntg kesyukuran aku...Alhamdulillah hari ini dua kes settle, x nd for trial, clear sikit mind aku mo cuti next wik :)

Alhamdulillah juga hari ini aku dimaklumkan bonus yg dijanjikn kerajaan akan dibyr masuk dlm akaun setiap pekrja d big G, syukur Ya Allah, sekurang2nya blhlah bikin byr kuih raya, oh ya talking about kuih raya, i managed to make two types of kuih raya last weekend, tart nanas yg x smpt buat last year sbb bersalin awal n chocolate chip cookies ala2 famous amos, Alhamdulillah, tho dlm kelam kelibut maid cuti last wikend dgn bantuan dua adik tercinta berjaya juga aku menyempurnakan hjt incik hubby yg berkehendakkan tart nenas tradisional, got d recipe from internet as usual d shape mcm ok sdh just d taste yg aku rasa mcm ada sesuatu yg lacking mcm kurang lemak tp yg penting org yg berkehendak tu ckp ok, bulihlah labu n incik hubby pun bkn suka sgt kalau trlampau lemak, as for d chocolate chip cookies, aku rasa blh dikatakan berjaya dgn jayanya cuma next time i'm gonna add cocoa powder so akan lebih terangkat huhuhu...

Alhamdulillah juga zulfan at d age of 4 yrs n 6 months manage to recite Al-Fatihah tho not tat fluent yet as i jz started teaching him i gez wat about 2-3 weeks ago, n as at d moment he managed to memorize d first three ayah, Alhamdulillah, wat i did was i'd ask him to recite d surah together wit me before he goes to sleep, n also whenever we were in d car, i will play d cd reciting d Qur'an syukur Ya Allah mudah2an Zulfan terus belajar, semoga diberi keterangan hati, ketajaman minda dan kecerdasan akal dlm mencari ilmu yg bermanfaat dunia dan akhirat seterusnya menjadi anak yg soleh, cemerlang dunia dan akhirat Amin Ya Rabbal'alamin...

Alhamdulillah juga zafran at d age of 11 months +++, managed to stand witout assistance longer than usual n will make about three steps ahead before jatuh terduduk :), he loves to babble also, n he also loves to dance whenever he hear any music...siap buat tgn ala igal2... zafran juga skrg kalau dgr azan di tv dia akan dgr dgn senyap for about 1 minute, dgr dgn khusyuk pula tu Alhamdulilah mudah2an minat
kepada ayat2 Allah ini akan berterusan, semoga juga Zafran diberi keterangan hati, ketajaman minda dan kecerdasan akal dlm mencari ilmu yg bermanfaat dunia dan akhirat seterusnya menjadi anak yg soleh cemerlang dunia dan akhirat Amin Ya Rabbal'alamin

Yang pasti segala yang baik itu dari Allah SWT, aku hanya mampu berusaha, berdoa dan seterusnya tawakkal kepadaNya, semoga usahaku ini tidak sia-sia dan semoga segala apa jua urusanku baik melibatkan suami, anak2, keluarga, tugas mahupun agama sentiasa dipermudahkan, dirahmati dan yg paling penting semoga aku mampu menjalankan tugas dan tanggungjwbku ini dgn sebaiknya dan seterusnya menghasilkan output yg baik dan diredhai olehNya Amin Ya Rabbal'alamin

Friday, July 29, 2011

Milestone...

Yesterday 28th July 2011 was d day when zafran had made his first attempt to walk, tho its just a tiny step in his playpen, i'm happy for it, Alhamdulillah, n now he manage to stand by his own witout holding to anything for about 5 secs, again mummy is proud wit u adik :)

As for Zulfan, his new skills sought is writing his own name and d alphabet, Alhamdulillah, mummy is proud wit u abang an (d name chosen by him :) )

I gez tats it for now, will write again if there is any interesting thing to write, till then d blog adjourned sine die...

Friday, June 24, 2011

D 2nd apple of my eye

Alhamdulillah, my 2nd hero zafran is 9 mths +++ now. But, due to my endless busyness, i have not write anythng on him in dis blog of mine, apologize mummy for tat dear...nway, will try to jot down somethng here now...

At d age of 9 mths +++, he is very active, cheerful, love to smile n love to 'cubit' people as well. As for sleeping, in d morning, its hard to put him to sleep more than an hour, d most is one hour. But as for nite, Alhamdulillah he can sleep thru until morning...

Ok d above text was typed a month ago n yet to be published n now zafran is 10 mths +++, currently he can stand by holding on chair n can make few steps, assisted of course :), hopefuly he could master d skill of walking soon Amin...he also can crawl very fast now, d art of crawling was skipped by zulfan when he was zafran's age, after standing steadily, he straight away make his first step n witout any crawling, well diff kids have their own path of development...

As for now as well, zafran know how to wave goodbye, do flying kiss n when we ask him to smile he will definitely grinned to u, when we asked him to "main mata" he will close his eyes:)

At d age of 10 months now, zafran had a total of 6 teeth n i had started brushing his teeth, oh yes due to rapid growth of teeth nowadays, he lovees to bite as well, be it someone's shoulder, arms or even his own hands...sakit ok dia gigit...:)

I guess tats it for now, will write again in near future...blog adjourned sine die